Sick of Sickness

I feel like I am always sick with something. If it isn't a migraine, its a stomach bug, or a bad foot, or acid reflux, or one of the other many ailments that my seemingly 90 year old body decides to throw at me. I am not headed to the doctor for whatever is causing me to feel sick every time I eat. I tried to ignore it, but it has been almost a week. So off I go to find out my new problem.

I am sure that my husband must think I am the biggest hypocondriac (sp?) that he has ever met. And I worry that he really thinks I am making all of this up. Because seriously, why should any one person under the age of 30 have so many issues. Grrrrrrrrrrrr.

This Christmas...

...will be....a very special Christmas......because Kate will actually be old enough to kind of enjoy it this year! And I am very excited about this. I saw two friends who posted their Christmas cards of interest for this year. We got ours from Shutterfly last year and plan to do it again. Love them. They have great choices and I am super excited to order ours for this year.

Here are the ones I like.....
and.....


Shutterfly has a great offer if you want to earn up to 50 free cards. Check it out!

I need.....

A new profession. One where it isn't always my fault, everyone has to be accountable for their own actions, and where I don't come home feeling like I am a complete failure on a regular basis.

Now, if I could just figure out what else I would do with myself, that would be great.

Tonight I finally got some time to scrapbook. Well, I mean, tonight I made some time to scrapbook. I realized that I have not done so since Kate was born, which is, shockingly, a year ago this Thursday. I kind of started to feel guilty that my sweet little girl does not have sweet little baby book. And really, who wouldn't want some of her adorable pics kept in a safe, acid free environment for her to share with her kids. So here are some updated pics of my almost one year old. It's going by too fast.

Best Bday Present Ever

So my sweet hubby bought me an AMAZING new camera for my birthday. It is a Nikon D5000, and I can't wait to take some new pictures of our little angel! I have been wanting a new camera since I got pregnant and Chris finally made it happen. I will never be able to figure out all of the incredible features of this new toy, but hopefully I will be able to figure out enough to start taking some really good, quality photos!

He also made me a giant cupcake. That's right. As Seen On TV giant cupcake. It was so sweet of him to do, and it was delicious. A nice, quiet family evening is just what I needed. So, look for some good pics in the near future.

So, my mom has been coming out to take care of Kate 2 days a week while Chris and I both work. During the summer she told me how much she missed her time with Kate and how she was ready for me to go back to work so that she could start seeing Kate regularly again. What I didn't realize until she was here today, and getting ready to leave, was how much I missed seeing my Mom on a regular basis. I have come to appreciate her so much more now that I know the blessing that is being a mother. I could just sit here and talk to her for hours. I am grateful, and appreciative every day. I know that we are blessed to not have to put Kate in daycare and I sometimes worry that I cannot adequately express my gratitude.

Size 8........a plus size?

So I saw this really unflattering picture of myself from a party I went to on Saturday. It was terrible. In fact, I wanted to cry, because while I thought I was actually looking alright, this picture made me look huge. Anyway, I decided to google search women who are a size 8, my current size, and see if it is just me being way too critical of myself. That was when I came across this:

http://blessingsfromabove2.blogspot.com/2009/08/womens-size-8-new-plus-size.html

It did put things in perspective. Why is it so hard to stop obsessing about weight and start being thankful for what we have?

I have an amazing husband who loves me no matter what. He loved me when I was 135. He loved me when I was 187. And he loved me when I was pregnant and gave birth at 207. And he loves me now at 160.

I have a beautiful daughter. She doesn't know what size I am. She doesn't know how much I weigh. All she knows is my voice and my face, and to her, I am just mom.

So today I am turning over new leaf. I will work to be healthy, but not skinny. I will try to complain less about being unhappy with my weight. Starting today I will start finding something to complement myself on each day. Because, lets be honest, if the world thinks size 8 is a plus size, then its no wonder women have such poor self image.

I say it is time we take a stand, and start feeling better about ourselves. I don't want my daughter growing up believing that the only way to feel good about herself is to be a size 4.